I’ve been feeling guilty these past few days. I accepted a casual position (I work part-time in another) in this facility and last September I had my orientation. It wasn’t finished because they badly needed staff that they asked me if I could start working on my own already. I’m like, sure, what could go wrong. Then, the next day, I picked up another shift which was a double overtime for me. And yes, for the month of September, I had like 2 overtimes in a row.
I am not complaining—I am grateful that I still have work in the midst of this pandemic. However, I also realized how bad it actually was for my mental health. It can be very stressful at times. Anyway, I had a week off last October and I decided not to pick up any shifts as I needed a rest. Then, my colleagues were asking my mom (my mom and I work at the same place, different departments) why I wasn’t picking up shifts. I felt so bad but at the same time, why were they asking my mom?
I even asked my friends if it’s okay to say ‘no’ when being offered a shift. She’s like, “Of course, because you’re a casual. And casuals usually work if they are available.” Anyway, I already picked up three shifts for this week in that facility—I’m working 5 days straight and it’ll be a 10 days shift for me. So if I am going to pick up more shift, it’ll be an overtime.
Again, I am not complaining or ranting—well kind of ranting—but I am feeling guilty about this whole situation. I kind of regretting accepting that casual position and in a verge of quitting because of the same reason (not able to pick up shifts). Especially when I hear that someone got mandated to do a double shift. I could’ve picked up that shift so they don’t have to, you know what I mean? But what can I do if the day does not work for me?
Oh the dilemma!
Good news for the week: I got a permanent position!
On other news, Philippines got struck by a calamity (again) last week. Lots of cities/provinces were affected by flood and most of them lost their homes and livelihood. The Filipino youths in our town organized a donation drive to help our kababayans back home. ANY amount will definitely help. Thank you!
I hope everyone have a good day! Stay safe, everyone!
