The Day I Reach My Breaking Point

We went hiking last May 18th (yep definitely a late post) and this was our second time on the trail so it wasn’t that bad. Well, going to the destination not bad—going back to the parking was hell. For me at least. We were supposed to go with two of our friends that day but they had to do something so le fiancé and I made it as one of our date hikes. It was a 5 hour hike (2.5 hours through and back) but instead of taking the usual trail that we took—we took a different trail. It was downhill at first so I didn’t mind. Then he said that it was longer but the trail wasn’t bad yet so I kept going. I didn’t mind the heat. When we got into the junction (or crossroad) I decided that we should just take the trail that we used before since it’s closer. Little did I know that we had to literally go back to our starting point in order to get back to the parking lot.

I didn’t realized this yet—I saw that the trail was uphill and I’m like “yeah this isn’t bad, it’s just one hill” But there were actually three more uphills after. It felt like it’s a never-ending uphill climb. Guess who got mad? Me! When I realized that we were really going back to our starting point—mind you we already walked for 2.5 hours at this point—I got frustrated. I was getting teary eyed because of exhaustion. When there was maybe an hour walk left before we reached the parking lot, I cried. That was my breaking point moment. I literally felt like I couldn’t go any further—I just wanted to sit in the middle of the trail and wait for someone to give me a ride LOL. My fiancé comforted me, and like a child, held my hand as we continued to walk.

I honestly tried to change my perspective—because that was my new year’s resolution—I tried letting go of my frustration and to think positively that finally we were close to our “destination”. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t let go of my negative thoughts. It was hard at the time. I told my fiancé that I did mentally prepared myself for the hike, but I wasn’t prepared for that unplanned trail. I wasn’t familiar with it. I was exhausted. He told me after that he wasn’t actually slowing down and that I was matching his pace (he’s way taller than me), so maybe that’s the reason why I was extra exhausted.

In the car, finally after an almost 7 hours hike (when it was supposedly a 5 hour hike) and with the distance of 20.91km, he had the audacity to actually tell me that “it felt good” and “I wasn’t really tired.” I kind of just glared at him and focused on eating my comfort food at the time, ice cream. Then we compared that experience when we went hiking in Alberta. The 27km “hike”—I dunno if I wrote about it here—but long story short: we got left behind by the shuttle bus so we had to walk to the parking area, and yes we walked by the highway. The scariest and the most wtf moment of my life LOL. Anyway, we came into conclusion that the reason why I was more exhausted on this hike compared to the Alberta hike was because of the 1) heat 2) more uphill climbs 3) we were taking a downhill path back in Alberta and 4) the scenery was breathtaking in Alberta that I didn’t got the chance to complain LOL

Then he brought up that we should go back there for another hike. I’m like NOPE—too soon, it’s way too soon. I was honestly traumatized LOL But yeah, probably in the future we could go back there and take another trail for a change. And after that hike I kind of didn’t work out for a good 1-2weeks LOL

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