Gosh. It’s been a year and I still cannot believe that you are gone. I remember waking up that day, refusing to believe what I read. I went back to sleep, thinking that it was probably a hoax, it must’ve been a mistake. It must’ve been a sick joke that antis spread. I woke up with a heavy feeling—I checked all the reliable sources online; I read all the fans’ comments—other idols and artists tweeted their disbelief, then the agency confirmed it. I remember just staring on my phone’s screen—still refusing to believe everything I’ve read. I thought my heart stopped. I went to work as usual and when I got home that’s when everything sinked in.
Last week, as I was watching Knowing Bros, my heart skipped when I saw the episode where you were one of the guests. Watching your old videos made me nostalgic. How I wish you’re still here with us, bopping to bop songs, belting out your ballad songs, goofing around with your members. But I guess, it was really unbearable for you to stay. I can’t help but think that what if someone came over to talk with you that day, what if someone called you that day—would it made any difference? Or would it just delay what was inevitable?
Well, I guess wherever you are right now—you are happy and contented. I know you’re still watching over your members and your fans; maybe you’re bopping with the hit songs and still belting out.
Jonghyun-ah, thank you for everything. Thank you for sharing your talent with us. Thank you for spending your time with us—thank you for making us happy. It’s already one year and I still remember you.
Fly high, angel ?
