HAPPY SEPTEMBER Y’ALL!
Wow! We are in -ber months already. You know what it means—Christmas is almost here! 2025 is coming to an end! Why am I yelling?!
Anyway, another check-in post. So here we go!
Back in July, I felt a change in me. Not a good change. My mental health was declining and I realized it wasn’t good when I noticed I’ve been snapping more than usual. I’ve been staying in bed more, refusing to get up. I was having a hard time recovering from my night shifts. And I’ve been feeling shitty in general. I was miserable. I couldn’t find the time to journal—to let out my negative emotions and I think that escalated everything.
Towards the end of August, I made a decision to step down from my full time position. I was desperate enough that I applied for the relief position, and thank God another position was posted that same week I was contemplating to let go of my position. So I applied for that too, and that position actually have a rotation so I don’t have to worry every 6 weeks for my schedule. My husband and I talked about this and he was supportive; kind of just reminded me that he wanted to go back to school (to bridge to RN). Our daughter will have to change from full time schedule in daycare to part time.
For two weeks, I haven’t heard anything—whether I got the position or not. And my hopes were getting squashed because I really thought someone more senior got it already. But! Last Friday, our Manager talked to me (after our night shift) and told me that I got the position. Later on the day, she asked whether I want the position with the rotation, the only catch with that is I’ll have a new rotation in April once the person working on that rotation comes back from their maternity leave. I’m sorry if it does not make sense lol
Starting October 5th, I will be working part time and no more nights for me. It’ll be a big adjustment for me, and for us in general. I still have to talk to our daycare if our little one can go part time starting October as well and maybe I can hook a friend who’s looking for daycare if they could take some of our spot.
I am very excited. I cannot wait to start. I could finally do things I’ve been wanting to do but cannot find the time to do it. I mean, I probably have the time, I just don’t have the energy. It feels freeing to be quite honest. Maybe I’ll have time to vlog now lol just kidding. But, we’ll see.
Exciting things ahead!
Ciao! 💋
