The last month of 2018 was the biggest plot twist of that year. And it was not a good plot twist. Just when I thought that everything was going smoothly, shit happened.
My boyfriend and I got into a huge argument for three consecutive days. It was the first time that we yelled at each other and I thought that’s it. I honestly thought that our relationship for three years was over. We were both tired and I hurt him way too much. Though we did made up the next day. We were able to overcome that holy freaking fight and was able to celebrate our birthdays and monthsary in Winnipeg just as we originally planned earlier that month. Up until now though, I am still thinking about our fight—what should I have and shouldn’t have done and said. I am thinking of ways I could make our relationship better and to learn from all of my mistakes. Despite this massive argument, I am thankful that we’re both fighting for our relationship—thankful that he didn’t give up that night and still willing to make us work. We’re still learning and I know that we are growing. We’re both trying to accept our indifferences and making up ways on how we could deal with it. We try to compromise and I know that eventually we will get pass through this.
I am proud to say that even though it took me three years to grow up and learn how to deal with the things I have no control with in our relationship, we’re still going strong. I am getting stronger and having a much better control with my emotions (aka anger) and getting mature in some ways. Hopefully, this year, I’ll be able to control my bad behaviours and not to let my emotions overrun the situation or problem. Besides, I think we both had enough arguments—and the last fight we had can last for years. LOL
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