I’m devastated.
I’m not even a stan or a fan. I don’t follow her (her activities or sns )–but I fucking respect her. Her weird and quirky ways—her beliefs and her point of view. I. RESPECT. HER. I respect Sulli.
Sure at first I find her really unique—I had an impression that she was rebelling; that she was trying to break free; and when I visited her ig I thought, damn, this girl must be going through something. Since I don’t really follow her or the news involving her—there’s little to none information I have of her.
I mean, I knew she’s from f(x); I’ve seen some gifs (from tumblr) of her half-assed performances (I didn’t knew the reason back then); I knew that she was involved in numerous scandals; and when she publicly announced she was in a relationship (not too sure if the guy was years older than her) plus the stuff she posted in social media, I thought she must’ve lost her mind and that she’s with bad companies for her to “behave” that way.
I found out she is suffering from depression. That when she quit f(x) it’s because of her mental health and not because she was being lazy, brat or whatever the fuck the rumors said when the clips surfaced. When she went on hiatus from the entertainment industry, I really thought she quit for real because of never ending hate she got from trolls and cowards. Then she came back this year.
I thought she’s better.
Some “news” I’ve read (mostly online obv) were about her not wearing a bra and going out around the neighbourhood braless. She was bashed nonstop because her nipples showed through her top. She’s been very vocal about “free the nipples” movement—the society however, isn’t ready for that type of liberation.
I saw a clip of her and her friend in a club doing an ig live—a man approached her and asked for a photo, at some point she cowered in fear. The man didn’t left, not until he saw that they were doing ig live. I read the comments from fans—many said it was learned behaviour, that she must have experienced that lots of times before.
I feel responsible. I feel like I failed her too. She’s been asking for help but everyone ignored her. Nobody stopped to ask if she’s okay—it was constant hate comments. People bashed her for no apparent reason.
I have so many what ifs and why’s and how’s. But I just hope that everyone takes responsibility to whatever they do. Especially those cowards who write hateful comments just because they’re hiding behind an anonymous username.
Poor soul, she suffered too much when she was alive. Rest In Peace now, love.
